I actually meant both of them - or neither of them.

[ But he's -- he's laughing, not at her but at the gentle tangle of fingers in her hair and that last statement, because. Just because it's funny in a very strange way. One he recognizes that he should need reassuring but on that... he just doesn't. He leans into her hand and tugs gently on the ends of her hair. ]

Probably not right now, but I know. [ Always, always, always. ] She was not happy about that for a while.

[ He loves her. He can't not. Then the laughter and smile fade. ]

I still haven't actually managed to say what I should have said years ago. [ And he still doesnt want to. So listen because he won't manage this twice. ]