[ Emma and what he did there is complicated. Because it's one of those things that he doesn't like and really, really doesn't like himself for--
but can't really regret, either.
And it's really not where his mind is right now. Well, not where most of his mind is.]
At the time, it felt like I should have 'handled' Apocalypse like you did Phoenix. Like we both thought there should be some common ground in the loss of control and guilt to meet on. I couldn't find it and felt like I was failing because I could not just come back.
Having recently been given a basis for direct comparison - No, Jean. Even Dark, even terrifying and terrible, Phoenix is an elemental force. Apocalypse was evil. I wanted to die for what I did when I lost control of her, but I felt contaminated after Apocalypse and that was... I didn't handle that well. [ Could not stand the thought of her anywhere near him, really. ]
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but can't really regret, either.
And it's really not where his mind is right now. Well, not where most of his mind is.]
At the time, it felt like I should have 'handled' Apocalypse like you did Phoenix. Like we both thought there should be some common ground in the loss of control and guilt to meet on. I couldn't find it and felt like I was failing because I could not just come back.
Having recently been given a basis for direct comparison - No, Jean. Even Dark, even terrifying and terrible, Phoenix is an elemental force. Apocalypse was evil. I wanted to die for what I did when I lost control of her, but I felt contaminated after Apocalypse and that was... I didn't handle that well. [ Could not stand the thought of her anywhere near him, really. ]