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[asongwithin]

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[overconfidently]

of this place and what it does. i was in logan's head. i saw some of the things they did to him here... felt the things he went through. this place keeps him on a leash because of the people he cares about here. i don't want to do what this place wants me to. i want to fight it. but people keep saying i can't. that i'll get hurt. and it makes me wonder how long until i become like logan and so many others here. i don't know what to do.

( he doesn't know how to live a "normal life" even in a place like this. all he knows is to hide, survive, and fight. )

[asongwithin]

He really must have wanted you to understand.

[ She's even angry at him for it, just briefly, but no: no, it's important that Nate realises what happens here, that he isn't blindsided by it. ]

You can't fight the way you're used to. All that's done, so far, is...is the kind of thing you saw in Logan's head.

Finding new ways to resist, that isn't giving up.

[overconfidently]

i don't like the thought of sleeping with strangers. that i need a dominant to be able to eat and have some place to sleep. i feel like breaking apart everything around me when people keep telling me to.

[asongwithin]

I know. (If you want, we could find some abandoned warehouse in the Down. Get some of that out without hurting anybody.)

And...

It doesn't have to be strangers. I mean - this isn't where I'd want you to start making friends, but - there are a lot of decent people here. That's why their awful system works so well.

[overconfidently]

you feel like that too? it feels like it keeps building and building inside me and i get irritated real easy. even when i don't mean to be.

( probably also has to do with picking up on others and their thoughts or feelings at times. telepath problems and all. but also nate's just severe lack of complete control of his own powers. where his powers might end up controlling him. )

wouldn't it be better then if i didn't? they use people as leverage here, don't they? logan and scott with you.

[asongwithin]

I do. I always have. We should - I can share some tips, for managing it.

[ It's a little surreal, because she's done that with Nate, from her perspective. But he'd already done some work himself, by then. ]

You could try to separate yourself, Nate, but...you aren't a cold person.

And I don't want to see anything turn you into that.

[overconfidently]

( like his mother, he finds it hard not to care which, in some ways, can be a blessing or a curse, depending. )

that might be good. the managing tips. i don't really... haven't really had people around who could do what i can do.

i don't want to either. become something i'm not. but i'm still scared.